Forgiveness

I'm not really upset that I've seen a dream unfulfilled rather I'm upset that I placed so much emphasis on something that neither defines me or builds me up. I'm a competent member of society without it and I'm able to do great things in spite of it. So, what fueled my desire...pure vainglory.

I'm so glad I've decided to let God reign over my life. In one little moment of truth last night I was able to see the error in my judgement and gauge what was really important in life. What I need the most is to see myself doing what I love to do and there is nothing more that I love than music. I've been defeated by so many things and deterred by so much, but this time it has to be different. I cannot let someone else's lack of confidence in me cause a lack of confidence in myself. I know my purpose. I am sure that God placed me here for such a time as this to do what he has called me to do and I'm finally not afraid to embrace that. Thank God that he his the ruler of my life. I praise him for letting me see myself for who I am and for giving me peace to deal with the things that are to come. I believe in purpose and I believe that any door that closes is only preparing the way for an even larger one to open. I know that I am worthy of anything that I desire and even if I do not receive it, I am still worthy of it. Time is of the essence and I know that anything that I am willing to wait for will happen.

I am grateful for these last two years. I am grateful for the woman I've become and the friends I've made; bonds that will never be broken. Thanks to you all for not choosing me, and to God for choosing me on the cross over 2,000 years ago. I know people think I haven't found peace with this situation, but I can honestly say I have. God is real and his plan is as well. I prayed and asked for peace and he gave it to me. I am grateful.

And I'll be loving you always...

♥