Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Monday, November 9, 2009

Walking. It's Just one foot in front of the other

Hello friends!

I hope you've been doing ok. Me? Well I've been up and down, trying to find a happy place. I think I'm getting the hang of life though, putting my focus on the right things.

I'm reevaluating what my I THOUGHT my purpose was and what I've been pretending it was. God gave me this music and even though it's not conventional and it's not what people think I should be doing I KNOW this is what he's called me to do along with SO MANY other things.

I'm grateful that I accepted the responsibility to handle my dreams and my destiny. God gave me this desire and he is willing to help me get to the place he designed for me to be. I LOVE God.

Right now, I'm just gearing up for the next few weeks so I can work on the album, some philanthropic work and really getting to a place where I can be genuinely happy.

I'm getting there, slowing down and just walking my way to my purpose. Cannot wait til it happens.

I pray you realize you're amazing!

"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special" --Do what you love!

With

Semaj

Friday, October 9, 2009

Star Dust


The last week or so has been a TEST, but I've learned so many lessons along the way. I've also met the most incredible people who've reminded me that this is what I was born to do.

I sang at an event for an oh so fab new company called 20 Somethings. They talked about how much they were fans of my music and I was so humbled. I also met a great couple there who just encouraged me. The guy told me he could just see me doing this, that I reminded him so much of a Chrisette Michele and Lauryn Hill. I was inspired and grateful.

I'm going full force. It's all coming together and I'm just waiting for God to move me into my rightful place. It's funny, but I feel the star dust falling on my head. I'm so close! I'm grateful for that year of setbacks and trials. I'm ready for the test!

Pray for me and continue to support me. I'm doing what I was called to.

Follow me on twitter @SemajSings and check out my team @Semaj_TheTeam

"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special"

With

Semaj


Thursday, October 1, 2009

It's Been a Long Time, Never Left You Though....

It's one of those days where you feel so relieved to be who you are; grateful to be living the way you've always dreamed. Can't say that I've achieved everything I set out to achieve, but I feel like I'm getting closer to God and He's leading me right where I need to be. I'm so grateful.

I've got a lot going on musically. (Thank God for allowing people to still believe in me after this long break). I was a little angry for a while, but I understand, now, why God told me to wait with the album. I needed to get some clarity and he needed to reveal some things to me. I think I have a better understanding, now. I'm happy.

The next two weekends will prove to be very busy for me. I've got two gigs this weekend and two next weekend. Cannot wait! :-) And I get to be at home next weekend with the fam, I've missed them so much. I just need to be where I know I'm loved and cared about. DC and this scene can really affect you, I tell you. Luckily, God is showing me who my real friends are and I'm grateful for that. The most unexpected ones, though.

Other than that. I'm just striving for this goal. Graduation from college is upon me and there are so many goals that I haven't reached, but I'm not gonna look at it like that. God is going to get me there. He keeps telling me that, I just have to believe in me. My gift isn't like anyone else's and I have to remember that and not get discouraged.

Thanks for being my audience and letting me vent and ramble on :-) Love you all.


"Humility is a sign of maturity."

with ,

Semaj

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Forgiveness

I'm not really upset that I've seen a dream unfulfilled rather I'm upset that I placed so much emphasis on something that neither defines me or builds me up. I'm a competent member of society without it and I'm able to do great things in spite of it. So, what fueled my desire...pure vainglory.

I'm so glad I've decided to let God reign over my life. In one little moment of truth last night I was able to see the error in my judgement and gauge what was really important in life. What I need the most is to see myself doing what I love to do and there is nothing more that I love than music. I've been defeated by so many things and deterred by so much, but this time it has to be different. I cannot let someone else's lack of confidence in me cause a lack of confidence in myself. I know my purpose. I am sure that God placed me here for such a time as this to do what he has called me to do and I'm finally not afraid to embrace that. Thank God that he his the ruler of my life. I praise him for letting me see myself for who I am and for giving me peace to deal with the things that are to come. I believe in purpose and I believe that any door that closes is only preparing the way for an even larger one to open. I know that I am worthy of anything that I desire and even if I do not receive it, I am still worthy of it. Time is of the essence and I know that anything that I am willing to wait for will happen.

I am grateful for these last two years. I am grateful for the woman I've become and the friends I've made; bonds that will never be broken. Thanks to you all for not choosing me, and to God for choosing me on the cross over 2,000 years ago. I know people think I haven't found peace with this situation, but I can honestly say I have. God is real and his plan is as well. I prayed and asked for peace and he gave it to me. I am grateful.

And I'll be loving you always...


Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Perfectly

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."


I once heard someone say that they are not settling down until they find someone perfect. At the moment, I thought that was bizarre. Yet, now I agree. I'm not settling until I find someone perfect. Not perfect as in exact symmetry in their face, a personality that is suitable to all and a lack of flaws. What I mean is someone who I can look at in all their imperfections and truly see past them. I want someone who is perfect for me, not perfect for anyone else but me.

I want my ideal person. Even if he isn't exactly like I've dreamed him to be, I'm waiting for him. I want someone who will do all the silly relationship things with me like kiss in the rain, or go on random Saturday morning adventures with me or just sit up until 6 a.m. and watch the sun rise. It's corny, but I want it and I'm bound and determined to get it.

Love is a crazy thing. It doesn't happen when you want it and I've waited years just to find the one and I'll continue until I get my perfect ending.

...and I'll keep growing until I'm grown



Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Goodmorning Dreams

It feels good to live like you think. I think I'm worthy of a lot. I think great things should happen to me. So, I'm living like they will.

I'm pretty much content right now. I'm trying to figure out a way to get this music thing back rolling. During Christmas break I did no music. I wanted to rest my voice and just give myself time to clear my head after that horrible semester. I also, was in a writing block. Luckily, I wrote two songs yesterday and I feel like the creativity is back!

I'm excited about 2009. I think it's going to be a good year. I'm teaching myself to worry less and trust more; to walk more in faith than in fear. I'm certain it will work.

I just wanted to give an update. Be on the lookout...Love.Live.Music will be released this year!

Keep checking back with me!

I love you all!!

Semaj

Monday, January 26, 2009

I AM...

Probably not your average girl. I know that. People often misunderstand me and my motives. Yet, my reason for being is not necessarily for you and it is. See, I cannot make you understand the the things that aren't understandable. However, I can make the less understandable things more fathomable. Believe me, I'd like life to be easy too. It's not and then it is. It's like, kinda hard to comprehend. I'm not a doubter but I haven't proclaimed that I'm a believer either. I am definitely a dreamer, wish seeker. This life is easier than that one that's kind of hard. Takes more strength to tear your world apart. I've got heart. I do. Tell me who I am, no I'll tell you. I am that I because he that is breathes through me. It's the new me.

Here I am. 21 years into my life and wondering when does this start to come together. You know, the desires and the actualities. When does that start to mesh? I hope soon. I'm so ready for a release, a breakthrough. I'm ready for my destiny to be fulfilled or at least touched. I need to be rejuvenated because I'm easily loosing focus. I'm trying harder to get myself geared for this ride. It's not been easy so far and I know it won't get easier, but this is in me.

I was born to sing these songs, write these words. I'm just waiting for the day when the world will be able to hear this voice and that God can truly do the work that he started in me.

Pray for me.

Semaj
♥ .Live. ♪♪♪