I've got little beauty to boast about
I don't make men faint or stare
But there's something amazing about my diligence
that you cannot find in my hair
I've got a cool confidence that's brighter than my smile
And my wisdom is better than a figure fair
I pride myself on my mind
So what I'm not the belle of the ball ...I can't say i care
I may not get you with this face
But my mind will amaze
I've been in such a funk lately. I'm at a very important crossroad. I've got the rest of my life dangling before me and I'm praying that I make the right decisions. It's a scary thought. Ironically, I haven't really come to grips with the fact that maybe this singing career won't happen. It's not because I don't want it, it's just I don't have the kind of support for it that I think I need. My parents don't encourage it, they don't even talk to me about it really. My friends don't encourage it much and it gets discouraging. I know I have been gifted with this. God uses me in song, but I just cannot seem to get the people around me to realize just how much it means to me.
Someone asked me yesterday if it was something I was willing to pursue and I told them "I'd give up everything to do this." I meant that. I want nothing more than to sing and play everyday...to touch people with my music. I just need support from the one's I love. I fear I"m going to end up being successful and hate every moment of it. I pray I am not.
It's funny. Who I'm planning to be and who I want to be are not the same person. Such is life.
I'm hopeful anyway.
With ♥,
Semaj
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Walking. It's Just one foot in front of the other
Hello friends!
I hope you've been doing ok. Me? Well I've been up and down, trying to find a happy place. I think I'm getting the hang of life though, putting my focus on the right things.
I'm reevaluating what my I THOUGHT my purpose was and what I've been pretending it was. God gave me this music and even though it's not conventional and it's not what people think I should be doing I KNOW this is what he's called me to do along with SO MANY other things.
I'm grateful that I accepted the responsibility to handle my dreams and my destiny. God gave me this desire and he is willing to help me get to the place he designed for me to be. I LOVE God.
Right now, I'm just gearing up for the next few weeks so I can work on the album, some philanthropic work and really getting to a place where I can be genuinely happy.
I'm getting there, slowing down and just walking my way to my purpose. Cannot wait til it happens.
I pray you realize you're amazing!
"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special" --Do what you love!
With ♥
Semaj
I hope you've been doing ok. Me? Well I've been up and down, trying to find a happy place. I think I'm getting the hang of life though, putting my focus on the right things.
I'm reevaluating what my I THOUGHT my purpose was and what I've been pretending it was. God gave me this music and even though it's not conventional and it's not what people think I should be doing I KNOW this is what he's called me to do along with SO MANY other things.
I'm grateful that I accepted the responsibility to handle my dreams and my destiny. God gave me this desire and he is willing to help me get to the place he designed for me to be. I LOVE God.
Right now, I'm just gearing up for the next few weeks so I can work on the album, some philanthropic work and really getting to a place where I can be genuinely happy.
I'm getting there, slowing down and just walking my way to my purpose. Cannot wait til it happens.
I pray you realize you're amazing!
"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special" --Do what you love!
With ♥
Semaj
Friday, October 9, 2009
Star Dust
The last week or so has been a TEST, but I've learned so many lessons along the way. I've also met the most incredible people who've reminded me that this is what I was born to do.
I sang at an event for an oh so fab new company called 20 Somethings. They talked about how much they were fans of my music and I was so humbled. I also met a great couple there who just encouraged me. The guy told me he could just see me doing this, that I reminded him so much of a Chrisette Michele and Lauryn Hill. I was inspired and grateful.
I'm going full force. It's all coming together and I'm just waiting for God to move me into my rightful place. It's funny, but I feel the star dust falling on my head. I'm so close! I'm grateful for that year of setbacks and trials. I'm ready for the test!
Pray for me and continue to support me. I'm doing what I was called to.
Follow me on twitter @SemajSings and check out my team @Semaj_TheTeam
"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special"
With ♥
Semaj
I sang at an event for an oh so fab new company called 20 Somethings. They talked about how much they were fans of my music and I was so humbled. I also met a great couple there who just encouraged me. The guy told me he could just see me doing this, that I reminded him so much of a Chrisette Michele and Lauryn Hill. I was inspired and grateful.
I'm going full force. It's all coming together and I'm just waiting for God to move me into my rightful place. It's funny, but I feel the star dust falling on my head. I'm so close! I'm grateful for that year of setbacks and trials. I'm ready for the test!
Pray for me and continue to support me. I'm doing what I was called to.
Follow me on twitter @SemajSings and check out my team @Semaj_TheTeam
"I'd rather have 3 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special"
With ♥
Semaj
Thursday, October 1, 2009
It's Been a Long Time, Never Left You Though....
It's one of those days where you feel so relieved to be who you are; grateful to be living the way you've always dreamed. Can't say that I've achieved everything I set out to achieve, but I feel like I'm getting closer to God and He's leading me right where I need to be. I'm so grateful.
I've got a lot going on musically. (Thank God for allowing people to still believe in me after this long break). I was a little angry for a while, but I understand, now, why God told me to wait with the album. I needed to get some clarity and he needed to reveal some things to me. I think I have a better understanding, now. I'm happy.
The next two weekends will prove to be very busy for me. I've got two gigs this weekend and two next weekend. Cannot wait! :-) And I get to be at home next weekend with the fam, I've missed them so much. I just need to be where I know I'm loved and cared about. DC and this scene can really affect you, I tell you. Luckily, God is showing me who my real friends are and I'm grateful for that. The most unexpected ones, though.
Other than that. I'm just striving for this goal. Graduation from college is upon me and there are so many goals that I haven't reached, but I'm not gonna look at it like that. God is going to get me there. He keeps telling me that, I just have to believe in me. My gift isn't like anyone else's and I have to remember that and not get discouraged.
Thanks for being my audience and letting me vent and ramble on :-) Love you all.
"Humility is a sign of maturity."
with ♥ ,
Semaj
I've got a lot going on musically. (Thank God for allowing people to still believe in me after this long break). I was a little angry for a while, but I understand, now, why God told me to wait with the album. I needed to get some clarity and he needed to reveal some things to me. I think I have a better understanding, now. I'm happy.
The next two weekends will prove to be very busy for me. I've got two gigs this weekend and two next weekend. Cannot wait! :-) And I get to be at home next weekend with the fam, I've missed them so much. I just need to be where I know I'm loved and cared about. DC and this scene can really affect you, I tell you. Luckily, God is showing me who my real friends are and I'm grateful for that. The most unexpected ones, though.
Other than that. I'm just striving for this goal. Graduation from college is upon me and there are so many goals that I haven't reached, but I'm not gonna look at it like that. God is going to get me there. He keeps telling me that, I just have to believe in me. My gift isn't like anyone else's and I have to remember that and not get discouraged.
Thanks for being my audience and letting me vent and ramble on :-) Love you all.
"Humility is a sign of maturity."
with ♥ ,
Semaj
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Forgiveness
I'm not really upset that I've seen a dream unfulfilled rather I'm upset that I placed so much emphasis on something that neither defines me or builds me up. I'm a competent member of society without it and I'm able to do great things in spite of it. So, what fueled my desire...pure vainglory.
I'm so glad I've decided to let God reign over my life. In one little moment of truth last night I was able to see the error in my judgement and gauge what was really important in life. What I need the most is to see myself doing what I love to do and there is nothing more that I love than music. I've been defeated by so many things and deterred by so much, but this time it has to be different. I cannot let someone else's lack of confidence in me cause a lack of confidence in myself. I know my purpose. I am sure that God placed me here for such a time as this to do what he has called me to do and I'm finally not afraid to embrace that. Thank God that he his the ruler of my life. I praise him for letting me see myself for who I am and for giving me peace to deal with the things that are to come. I believe in purpose and I believe that any door that closes is only preparing the way for an even larger one to open. I know that I am worthy of anything that I desire and even if I do not receive it, I am still worthy of it. Time is of the essence and I know that anything that I am willing to wait for will happen.
I am grateful for these last two years. I am grateful for the woman I've become and the friends I've made; bonds that will never be broken. Thanks to you all for not choosing me, and to God for choosing me on the cross over 2,000 years ago. I know people think I haven't found peace with this situation, but I can honestly say I have. God is real and his plan is as well. I prayed and asked for peace and he gave it to me. I am grateful.
And I'll be loving you always...
♥
I'm so glad I've decided to let God reign over my life. In one little moment of truth last night I was able to see the error in my judgement and gauge what was really important in life. What I need the most is to see myself doing what I love to do and there is nothing more that I love than music. I've been defeated by so many things and deterred by so much, but this time it has to be different. I cannot let someone else's lack of confidence in me cause a lack of confidence in myself. I know my purpose. I am sure that God placed me here for such a time as this to do what he has called me to do and I'm finally not afraid to embrace that. Thank God that he his the ruler of my life. I praise him for letting me see myself for who I am and for giving me peace to deal with the things that are to come. I believe in purpose and I believe that any door that closes is only preparing the way for an even larger one to open. I know that I am worthy of anything that I desire and even if I do not receive it, I am still worthy of it. Time is of the essence and I know that anything that I am willing to wait for will happen.
I am grateful for these last two years. I am grateful for the woman I've become and the friends I've made; bonds that will never be broken. Thanks to you all for not choosing me, and to God for choosing me on the cross over 2,000 years ago. I know people think I haven't found peace with this situation, but I can honestly say I have. God is real and his plan is as well. I prayed and asked for peace and he gave it to me. I am grateful.
And I'll be loving you always...
♥
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Perfectly
"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."
I once heard someone say that they are not settling down until they find someone perfect. At the moment, I thought that was bizarre. Yet, now I agree. I'm not settling until I find someone perfect. Not perfect as in exact symmetry in their face, a personality that is suitable to all and a lack of flaws. What I mean is someone who I can look at in all their imperfections and truly see past them. I want someone who is perfect for me, not perfect for anyone else but me.
I want my ideal person. Even if he isn't exactly like I've dreamed him to be, I'm waiting for him. I want someone who will do all the silly relationship things with me like kiss in the rain, or go on random Saturday morning adventures with me or just sit up until 6 a.m. and watch the sun rise. It's corny, but I want it and I'm bound and determined to get it.
Love is a crazy thing. It doesn't happen when you want it and I've waited years just to find the one and I'll continue until I get my perfect ending.
...and I'll keep growing until I'm grown
♥
I once heard someone say that they are not settling down until they find someone perfect. At the moment, I thought that was bizarre. Yet, now I agree. I'm not settling until I find someone perfect. Not perfect as in exact symmetry in their face, a personality that is suitable to all and a lack of flaws. What I mean is someone who I can look at in all their imperfections and truly see past them. I want someone who is perfect for me, not perfect for anyone else but me.
I want my ideal person. Even if he isn't exactly like I've dreamed him to be, I'm waiting for him. I want someone who will do all the silly relationship things with me like kiss in the rain, or go on random Saturday morning adventures with me or just sit up until 6 a.m. and watch the sun rise. It's corny, but I want it and I'm bound and determined to get it.
Love is a crazy thing. It doesn't happen when you want it and I've waited years just to find the one and I'll continue until I get my perfect ending.
...and I'll keep growing until I'm grown
♥
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